a deeper post bout her.

recently i recieve comments on "a girl named dee". andwhen i posted it, a really good friend of mine said that i'm dishonest withmyself and i haven't extract all the feelings inside it. well i admit that he's right. i didn't express it completely. dee herself read it and comment "so i'm not good at all heh?" hehe i guess what i wrote there give a little effects on her. actually there are too many subject to talk bout her. maybe i'm gonna create a blog just to talk bout her. but i'm sure noone will want to read bout it. except max and herself. well maybe her future boyfriend.......
i'm not good at all in expressing feelings..... so i guess i'll let bon jovi do it for me.... heheheh........ at first, bon jovi did express my feelings very nice in "never say goodbye". that make the song as one of our favourite song. but later on, we did say goodbye. that makes the lyric isn't right anymore. and it also change the way i love her. and again, bon jovi has made a very nice job on "Always". yeah. thats how i feel bout her now.

This romeo is bleeding

But you can't see his blood

It's nothing but some feelings

That this old dog kicked up

w

It's been raining since you left me

Now I'm drowning in the flood

You see I've always been a fighter

But without you I give up

w

Now I can't sing a love song

Like the way it's meant to be Well,

I guess I'm not that good anymore

But baby, that's just me

w

And I will love you, baby - Always

And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

I'll be there till the stars don't shine

Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme

And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind

And I'll love you - Always

w

Now your pictures that you left behind

Are just memories of a different life

Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry

One that made you have to say goodbye

w

What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair

To touch your lips, to hold you near

When you say your prayers try to understand

I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

w

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near

When he says the words you've been needing to hear

I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine

To say to you till the end of time

w

If you told me to cry for you I could

If you told me to die for you I would

Take a look at my face

There's no price I won't pay

w

To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck

In these loaded dice

But baby if you give me just one more try

w

We can pack up our old dreams

And our old lives

We'll find a place where the sun still shines

The choice is upon me

Here I am. In the finish line of my diploma. Continuing to achieve my bachelor is not an option. I have to do it. hahahha. Well the choice that is upon me is the way I make money.

• choice one is as simple as usual. Get a job, be a good employee and have your paycheck by the end of the months.
• the second choice is a little difficult. i work as a freelancer. got money when there is a chance. and be a loser when there is no chance.

the choice seems simple. it is simple if you know what you want with your life. for me, it's a little complicated. i dedicated my life for people i love. that means family and friends. actually they have nothing to do with this. no matter how i make money, they will always be my friends and family. as long as i do it in a good way.

so, basicly i'm a lazy man. just like Robert Kiyosaki refers to himself. a lazy fat man who like to spend the morning in the bed, and the evening eating pork. so, in order to do that, there are few things i need to do.

1. first of all, i need to build a bussiness that can run without my presence. and that means i'm gonna need a good system. which i don't have right now. well there are few thought here and there. but still not good enough.
2. second of all, in order to build that kind of bussiness, i need to collect some capital.

i was thinking about being a freelancer to collect the money first then start my own company. or i can work at a company then after finish my bachelor i can start my company. but if we count. toyota will give a diploma 3 holder for about 2 m per months. lets say that i can save for about 750k per months. in 2 years i only got 18m. it's not gonna enough for my own company. and that means having a job is really not an option. now i know what i'm gonna do. haha this blog thing is so nice........

The Finish line of my diploma

few days ago, i crossed the finish line of my diploma studies. yeah. now i'm a diploma 3 holder. not too proud. actually i'm a little ashamed bout it. all my friend go for bachelor. anyway, i'm making this project for my thesis. quite a big one i guess. and it works really nice and all of the user like it. but once again me and my big mouth cause me into trouble. yeah. I told the manager that i can create a more powerfull program. it's just i don't have enough time. now he give me some time to develop the program. it's not that i don't want to do it. it's just i don't see any money coming out of it. should i do it for free? maybe i can do that........ hmmmmm that gonna be a good advertisement for my clients......... okay then i'll do it. haha.