The new Year

I started this year with a very big hope and few resolution. One of my resolution is to get her out of my head, my heart, and my life. it's not a hard thing to do. just give me a few of fantastic girl that meet my requirement and she'll be gone forever. well, actually thats what i hope.

anyway, i've spent 3 days in this year (that only passed 3 days) thinking bout her. This 3 days are filled with so many sweet memories with her. the way she treat me, the time we spend together. and a deep thinking about why all of this thing supposed to happened. yeah that's still a big Question on my head. WHY DID WE BREAK UP??? damn, it's so hard to answer. i kinda got the feeling that there are still some things deep inside her. and there are still big things inside of me. well, maybe not have the feeling. more like have the hope. a part of my heart told me that she's hurted because i break up with her. if that is the reason, i really hope that we can be together again. some people say that she's using me. well i didn't say no to that. but everybody are using me. either it's my skills or my car or everything i got. but i guess thats not a problem. life is not a one way street. it's about giving what you have and getting what you want. every sales are made with marketing cost. and it's the same as in the relationship. the point is how to get the most of what you want with the least thing to do. giiiii i never know that i might think like this..... is this really me? i sounded so bad. anyway, back to the point, rite now i'm really thinking bout the reason why we break up and why we can't be together again. hei, wait a minute, i already figured that she's the one that don't want to be together again. so now the quest is to find out why she don't want me anymore. it's not because of the car. she's not that bad. and don't you put things like that in your head.